I started the ball rolling this year with my promise to self to start these check-in videos. I’ve been doing it, and while I am STILL not 100% at ease putting a camera up and recording, I am seeing the benefit in it. Between keeping record of my growth journey, sharing what I’m learning so it might help someone else, and checking in so folks know what’s going on with me these days, the reasons to continue are outweighing my apprehension.
Fast forward to me practicing connecting more and trying a Chakra Balancing Series offered by Energy Exchange. The spotlight we’re shining on each of my 7 main chakras is beautiful! The artwork I’m creating from this workshop is becoming a very revealing self portrait of my energy, and I love it! Even the part that called me out for settling for less than what I know my purpose is. That’s what happens when you shine a spotlight, you see all the crumbs and juice spills left behind after an unfinished effort.
So here I am finishing the job and doing the part that I love least. I’m truly not entirely certain why I am so averse to just talking on video unscripted when I actually thrive talking to people in person. I have my theories but pondering them further will only feed my procrastination. This work is what my spirit was preparing me for with those check ins, so I am challenging myself to see what it is, once and for all, and face this issue. Starting tomorrow (8/1) I am going to do a 5-minute live session on YouTube every day for 30 days and see how long it takes me to self-combust, hehe. If you’d like to join me, I’ll be on in the morning somewhere between 6am-8am after my meditations and affirmations, but before I have time to really get into self and lose courage. I’ll also be sharing the video so you can see it later in the day too.
I don’t know what I’ll be talking about or how it’s gonna go, but I do know I have to do it. It’s time to grow this comfort zone and make space for everything I’m calling into my life. Even when I feel like nothing else is growing around me, I’ve learned this is still one way I can make space for my abundance. It’s not fun but phew, I sure do expand! That is the whole point right? Well here we go, to making room *cheers*. See you tomorrow.