Yesterday all my doubts and anxieties ran to the forefront of my mind as soon as I woke up. It's very difficult to manifest growth, healing, and abundance in faith with those two taking over every thought, so my work yesterday was heavily spiritual. I'm sharing because maybe this is you too?
I had to remember me, 10 years ago, crying real tears, wishing she could don the shoes I wear today. I had to recall all the hope, heart prayers, and mantras that kept me believing I would one day be where I now stand. I moved mountains to be here, yet here I am still bowing to the same anxiety. How sway?
No. That anxiety is based in fear, and that fear is based on the unknown. The unknown will ALWAYS be there, and so may that fear. It is as much a companion as the breath in my chest because no matter what I do, I will never know the future. So yes, my anxiety and my fear are real and VERY uncomfortable.
And so is reality! The reality is fear has gripped me before and I've still acted in blind faith anyway and that was also VERY uncomfortable! As a result, my life has only become everything I ever wanted. The reality is the worst case scenario I cowered from in the unknowing never came to pass no matter how bad things got.
Acknowledging that my past work in faith has always been answered calmed my anxiety and fear right down. I know they are not gone for good, but I now have a tool to employ when they start taking over again. I acknowledge that they are as real as answered hope. I am a powerhouse fueled by both faith and fear. My fear shows me where I need to grow and my faith helps me through the transformation.
Remembering what I used to beg for and seeing how it has come to pass because of my choices based on faith in my ability to create my best life in spite of my fear had me ending the day in abject gratitude. I needed that reminder, and I'm sharing this just in case somebody else needed it too. Keep going.
Anxieties Answered